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Thursday, May 20, 2004 it's official..i'm a failure.. nv felt worse.. checked my results..grades plummeted..nv expected it.. i tot i could get at least afew As, but alas..buncha C+.. CAP like shit.. damn demoralised. feels damn screwed up. sick, screwed grades and a vacuum in my heart. i can't believe it..my grades have been screwed up twice by the same guy in 2 semesters..shame on you if u fool me once, but shame on me if u fool me twice.. coz' i allowed myself to be mired in all these troubles.. i tot i'd do betta than last sem..but boi was i wrong.. at least last sem when i received my results, i had him to hug me, this time..it's gone. i lie on my bed thinking of the times. it's been so long. i can't get over it.. i dun hate him, i wished i do, maybe if i hate him, it'd be much easier on me. but there's no reason to. i am so tired.. luckily, parents were damn nice to me..encouraged me, din blame me..just told me to work harder..learned one thing..parents are always there when you need them, they nv leave you, guys do, all the time..when u need them most. i real appreciate my mum coz' she's always there to pick me up and talk to me. i noe i'm hurting them badly when they see me like that.. i swear i won't commit myself to a r/s till i graduate. so PLEASE my dear frenz, if eva, u think i'm close to a guy, drag me away from it and remind me of my pathetic grades. i'm petrified of the emotional turmoil of a broken heart..nothing goes in ur brain when ur tears just keep flowing. it's happened in sec4, sem1 and now.. i ask myself: aren't you eva tired of it? i am.
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