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Wednesday, June 30, 2004 i know i haven't been blogging. away for foc, din enjoy myself. tink i'd like biz ad betta if i had not gone..too much gossip and bitching..besides, i'm not the cheering sort. hate cheering.. so if i come across as attitude, too bad.fucking pissed off now. went holland v for sup and i got the first and hopefully last summon of my life!! sheesh, i can't fucking believe it la..there was the blackout and i din noe had to put parking coupon even at nite!! sheesh, wondering if i shud write in or just pay the fine..but i feel damn wronged la..who the hell would haf checked the board when everything was in the dark? arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhh... alot things happened but nothing intersting i guess. i came to a realisation. i've been putting him in too good a light and bringing myself down. i should learn to love myself, i dun need anione to love me. it's time to move on. i've my gut instinct tt he's found someone new, it's just tt nobody wants to tell me. but i so feel it. it's so easy for everyone to move on, it's prob so easy for him to move on too, the onli one having difficulty is me. there're plenty nice pretty gerz out there better than me, he can haf his pick. As for me, even tho it'd be easier for me to move on w a new beau but rationality overruled, i'm betta off healing by myself and not drag another person into my mess. The time will come when i can finally find myself not thinking abt him animore. It is just sad how it all became like this, how we're not frenz(but i tink it's prob betta off this way). besides, tink there's nothing btw me and mr. beetle already, he's bo chap so yeah i get it. Love strikes in the most unexpected places, so yeah..wait on.. Meanwhile, love myself. been shopping like hell..part of my "love myself" campaign.. mom screaming at the heaps of shopping bags on the floor which i've not had time to pack into the shelves..jialat..my card's bill came today, *breaks out in cold sweat*... now i noe why i've no bf oso.. i shall save!! haha but what abt that pair of gucci shades and rollerblades and overseas trip i've been eyeing?
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