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Sunday, February 17, 2008 Still mending my heart and having time for my self-improvement, but i know the only way is up. i dun want someone who's in love with me and treats me nice, but whom i may nt feel the same towards, that's come to pass and i'm glad i stepped out because it's unfair to the other party. I'm also sick of being totally nuts about someone but being left in a state of confusion and doubt, maybe coz he does not love me enough. It hurts too much when expectations are held too high because u're ready to make any sacrifice in order for the relationship to work but the other party is expressing this willingness.Vday came and passed, much like any other mundane day, nothing spectacular, no gift or flowers or declarations, just going to work and entertaining clients at night. Think it's the most 'normal' vday i've had since i started having interests in guys, it's alright by me. For once, i could tk it with a pinch of salt. Nobody in the horizon at all. but it's fine by me, i know it's gonna be fine. Tho sometimes i wonder if i'll ever look back and wished how certain things never happened, and what would have happened if i were still with that someone.. i know there can be no regret. Many pple settle down with pple they may not be terribly in love with, but coz they happen to be at the right place at the right time, tho part of their hearts pine for someone in the past..*sooo "before sunset/sunrise"!!* I'm just counting of Faith that He has got the best plans for me. Ha i already got stressed by relatives over chinese new year enquiring on my love life.. quite funny, just 2 yrs ago they were telling me to concentrate on studies and now it's a complete tune altogether.. Kaypo Auntie: "got boi boi or not?" Me: "no leh" Kaypo Auntie: "Why?!!? Not young alr lei, date a few yrs gotta marry alr.. or else very hard to keep up with kids next time. when i was 18, i was alr with ur uncle.." oh my gawdddddd!! u kidding me, i'm at my prime! but i admit to being a lil' distressed to see my lil' cousins bring their partners to bai nian, and they're like a good 3-6 years younger than me lor.. stupid spoil market..
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