So... there's been no contact for a week, everyday my heart aches a little and every moment my mind wanders to our happy times, i wonder when it'll go away. There's been no news on the other side, i thought the msg was, "sort it out before we meet again". It seems like he just gave up coz' he knew he can't sort it out. So I've been thinking alot, and i still don't have an answer. Are my expectations unnaturally high? Maybe, but i've always felt one shouldn't settle. In the end, does it all matter? Answer is no. But meanwhile, can i live with it? Probably not. Talking to his friends make me feel superficial simply because birds of the same feather flock together. I'm NOT status conscious, the difference is that I need to be intellectually stimulated, i need a guy who engages me and earns my respect. Else i'll just get bored, i know. But maybe i haven't been patient enough, but i'm sooo fearful that patience will get me nowhere when i'm 30 and realise that i'm still stuck w the wrong guy. i think it's fear taking over. People tell me that i should weigh out the pros and cons, and i can say he's been perfect to me.. THAT's the only bone i gotta pick. At least he's not psycho or possessive or has anger management problems. I DUNNO ANYMORE.. I'm too proud and stubborn. Can a couple really work everything out if they put their hearts to it? I feel like i'm on the boat alone now.